Honestly it hurts too much to think
Of you with anyone but me
And I’m not trying to be anything but happy

I let go so long ago it seems
But the extensions of these dreams still call and reach for me
And I’m not trying to do anything but sleep

When I think back to the day
Before all of this
and you
washed over me
The relief I crave
Seems as distant as the sea
From a mountain peak

And I’m not trying to say anything,
Okay?

This was all a big mistake
This was all a big mistake
This was all a big mistake
This was all a big mistake

This was all a big mistake
Fell apart and there I stay
Floating in the pool of apathy
Diluted by recovery
Affixed to the idea of
Who we were trying to be
This was all a big mistake
Fell apart and there I stay
Floating in the pool of apathy
Diluted by recovery
Affixed to the idea of a better way
to change

Honestly it hurts too much to think
Of you with anyone but me
And I’m not trying to be anything but happy

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Here’s the very rough demo with the initial lyrics – I made a brief change already removing the “remembering” from the last verse before the re-introduction.

I’ll be working on this one and a bunch of others for this project this summer so keep an eye out for more sneak peeks.