I’m not afraid of drowning
It happened the first time when I was 4

No, I’m not afraid of drowning…

Just my lungs collapsing on themselves
And water floating through my nose
Absolving me of my sense of smell
After going too deep into the public pool
I start to choke, but it doesn’t come out
Instead filling another gaping hole
My tongue powerless in keeping it out

And as the world around me fades to black
It’s not my mother or father that I hear yell
I can’t remember the last time I saw them
I recall as the lights go out

Nothing happens really when you’re dying
No wonder it didn’t feel so bad as an adult

So no, I’m not afraid of drowning,
Just no one else being around